Posted by just plain jane on January 8, 2005, at 10:45:06
In reply to crying again, posted by partlycloudy on January 5, 2005, at 20:02:02
I've NEVER had what it takes to go to a dancing class. In fact, I've only been able to let myself dance when I've had a couple or so drinks in me, which I do only very occasionally, and there's no dancing going on there usually. None i would join, anyway.
To look in the mirror at myself is a matter for simple grooming and examination. If I look longer I feel I am being vain, which hurts me deep inside.
You are so much more self-confident with respect to dancing, appearing in a class to dance, looking at yourself exercising or performing, than I can imagine I would/could ever be. And yes, I would like to feel that type of self confidence, if only to experience it, with no guilt, someday. Perhaps.
Congratulations for taking the first steps.
Keep going.
You have the history and experience. It will come back. Try ignoring the others (not socially, but during practice movements). Find out if anyone else is on psycho-type drugs. "Has it become really common to be taking something for depression or anxiety and panic? I know a few people who do. Any of you know anything about it?" Or something along those lines is sure to pop some mouths open. Then how close to your own situation you get is entirely up to you. But it will probably allow for conversation in other areas.
Yes, it's hard to do in a setting where everyone else seems to know one another. Just remember what it's like for newcomers to PB.
Just my thirty-eight cents' worth.
jane
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