Posted by lostforwards on December 17, 2004, at 7:09:45
In reply to I think... » lostforwards, posted by alexandra_k on December 17, 2004, at 3:13:20
they dissociated my sexuality away from me. completely. It easily triggers with sleep deprivation. I don't have a mood disorder. If I take no lithium, and just do a little sleep deprivation and proding, I dissociate. Those group stalkers wanted to mess me up so I'd rape someone or something. Oh well... I don't even feel like writing this, but you know why I'm writing it, cause I know and I analyze my dreams...and I think too much... and I don't trust doctors.... and I'll let my mom rape me as much as she wants. She didn't actually do it, but the psychology was there... my friends also lied... you won't believe any of this but you were part of the puzzle... they got you to trip me out so I would dissociate.. .they even went as far as changing the color of a car. isn't that sick? is it healthy to have multiple personalities? I don't think it is... especially when they're so easily triggered. I might become one of those sleep sex guys... I don't know what to do... it's been hell...really it has... they were trying to kill my feelings is what someone said... drugs can causes switches though... the way it works is, one part of my personality is stored in the right half of my brain and the other on the left... I know that's a crude generalization but it's true. I now have complete dissociation. Almost. Sleeping a full night will shit brain activity from one area to the other, missing sleep will trigger the state I'm in now - which isn't natural - oh dear...what a mess.
one thing is for sure. never the doctor. sorry. i hate them.
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