Posted by newbfhcards on December 2, 2004, at 23:39:46
In reply to Re: First Day here.Some of my story » Newbfhcards, posted by Soulnik on December 1, 2004, at 22:55:19
Nikki,
Everyone on the board seems to help, I am so skeptical of everyone, however, Everything you said was so great you really answered in the perfect way, I have not read any post with so much thought or caring. Thank you very much, Right now I feel ok, I have been to the doctor and all my blood tests have come back normal. I am trying, I tried this weekend with my mom, we went to a local bookstore with the mission of finding her a book or some information, however when we got there she avoided those isles like the plague. I cannot tell her that some days I think about killing my self for most of the day. How could I ever tell her? What is the plan you have with your friends? I dont tell any friends about those feelings because i feel like its just a huge burden to the them and a wieght they do not deserve to have on their shoulders. I have been up and about for about 3 consecutive days, which is the most I have in months so that feels good. However I am so scarred that I cannot deal with another down time again. The ups and downs are so frustrating and dissapointing they seem to come faster and faster. My current (3 days) of feeling ok has me even more confused. I just dont know I dont know anything. I have been trying to get out because my body dying just laying in bed and I used to work out and run and be active and was strong now if eel week and feeble. How old are you? How long have you been diag? Thanks again Sorry for the spelling and grammar, its late and my head is pounding
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