Posted by Newbfhcards on November 24, 2004, at 16:43:10
Hi. I am having a lot of problems I dont know where to start or where to top. I dont even know who I am anymore. I dont know what me is. I have been seeing docs off and on for the past few months. I am being medicated with Lamictal and Celexa, I have never been on any medication for mental health in my life. Not one person I know seems to know how I feel or can understand an ounce of whats going on with me. I don't blame them or fault them, how could they know? How do I explain to them? How do I tell my mother? Why do I have so many suicidal thoughts? Why do I want to do so much at times and then hours later feel the opposite. Is there any hope out there? Can I really get better? Can I do all the things in life that I previously thought I wanted? Am I just lazy, am I really sick? Will reading about rapid cycling bipolar disorder make me better and understand whats going on with me or will it make me subconciously act out more of the symptoms? It seems from what I read on here, posts and threads and such that people have problems with the meds and have to go from med to med before they find the right one, I fear I do not have the time for this or the will to fight for it. DO others feel this way? How do they move forward with life? someone let me know, please, not looking for a miracle pill or piece of information, just something, I don't know what
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