Posted by partlycloudy on November 18, 2004, at 9:09:08
In reply to No, not a disappointment » partlycloudy, posted by saw on November 18, 2004, at 8:24:50
How is it that you guys always know how to make me cry?
I have a hard time explaining my embarassment, except to say that it hurts so much that I really wish a hole in the earth would open up and swallow me entirely.
I know that the fear is far worse than the reality.
I know that I won't "die" of embarassment.
When I started my leave from work, I told myself that I would take baby steps, that each activity was a victory. Every dish I washed, every bed I made up, every workout I did, was pushing me a little farther up that mammoth hill my illness has made inside me. This dancing thing has quite an association of strength for me, for which I now understand I'm not quite ready.
I think that I will take a little rest before continuing my charge up that hill.
thank you
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