Posted by Atticus on August 28, 2004, at 8:06:38 [reposted on August 30, 2004, at 2:53:26 | original URL]
In reply to Re: Hey Atticus check out B2 and Scott in Vermont, posted by DaisyM on August 27, 2004, at 23:11:37
Thanks so much, Daisy. It's hard to express how much I appreciate your message, and ones like it from other Babblers. You're right: the lure of darkness, of oblivion, of an end to pain, has seemed so incredibly seductive when the soup in my skull has become out of sorts. Obviously, it was so seductive to me that I answered its irresistible siren's song with that box-cutter. But having done that, I make no pretense of having any more insight into my illness than anyone else. I can just write about it on a personal level, try to trace its origins, pen reminiscences about when I was younger and full of high-octane rocket fuel and never, in a million years, imagined what lay ahead. The posts about suicide really leave me flummoxed. I feel like such a pretender trying to offer "sage" advice to these people. I know no one could have reached me on the morning of this past June 2. But, as I wrote to Jai, I feel like my second chance means I owe it to them, to whatever forces steer the universe, to a least try. :) Atticus
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