Posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 28, 2004, at 1:51:21
In reply to B2, posted by Scott in Vermont on August 26, 2004, at 15:42:35
In your post, there is a clear cut message sent. I want my old life to end. But, the log truck thing is called suicide by proxy. Also, the poor guy driving the truck would have to live with years of guilt of killing someone. He himself may contemplate suicide. His family would feel the effects.
The fact remains. Your actions will effect others. You think you don't matter. That is far from the truth. If you raise that shot gun, you might as well shot it through the heart of everyone that loves you, Scott. It's the truth. You will just shift your pains onto someone else. Is that what you want? Is that the answer? You may say, "Shadow, I don't have anyone that loves or cares about me." I know one person that should and that's you, Scott. You are getting your world in order that's great. Why not enjoy it? Start eating. Stop hurting yourself by not eating and not taking medications when needed. Forget the books, Scott. They will not tell you how to love yourself. You have to learn how to do it. How you may ask? Treat yourself as a child that you love with all your heart. Get out pictures of when you were 4. Look into the eyes of that kid. That's who you are going to put a bullet into. Is that fair? No. Heck No. That's abuse. How would the parents feel? The grandparents? We are all connected, Scott. What you do affects me and what I do affects you. This is about accepting you are lovable with a diagnosis and with pain.
IT'S NOT OVER SCOTT. UNLESS YOU SAY IT IS. IF YOU TAKE THAT STEP TO HARM YOURSELF, YOU ARE PUTTING A BULLET INTO GENERATIONS OF THOSE WHO LOVE YOU. WE ARE ALL BROTHERS AND SISTERS. MY BROTHER, DON'T KILL YOURSELF. IF YOU DO, YOU PUT A BULLET IN MY (YOUR SISTER'S) HEART.
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