Posted by TexasChic on July 21, 2004, at 15:46:11
In reply to Re: Progress? » pegasus, posted by partlycloudy on July 21, 2004, at 15:05:17
Progress is progress, and you can't say you haven't made any. So don't be so hard on yourself, okay?
I'm pretty bad with the booze and weed myself right now. Its always been an off and on thing for me with both substances. I've never really felt addicted, but when I drink, its to excess, and of course weed is just an escape and that's all there is to it (well, other than the calming properties that help my anxiety). Of course, now that I'm in my own place, I'm taking advantage of being able to do what I want. But I can tell I'm using both to escape instead of just being recreational. But you do what you've got to do to make it through, right? Hopefully I will find better, more productive ways to do that, but for now I'm handling things the best I can.
Right now I'm stressing about:
• Denist appts and missing work - I've been having to take off for multiple appts and I think my boss is getting irritated even though I make up the time.
• I have an interview next week - I'm stressed about having to take off once again, plus the usual stress of an interview, I don't have anything to wear yet, the place is an hour away and I haven't decided yet if I'm up to the commute if I do get offered the job (I could move when my lease is up, but 5 months of an hour drive and back? I'm just not sure). But its more money, and a bigger company, so I would have a chance to move up unlike at the small companies I've been working at.
• I talked to my boss about some things at work that were really bothering me, she spelled out everything she would do to change it, and none of it has happened. The basic feeling I get is she doesn't think I'm as competent to do the job as my co-worker (and friend) is. And I have more experience in the field than she does! My last job I didn't get much credit either – I think its just a sore spot with me.
• Money!!! I'm going to have to file bankruptcy in order to get back on track, but in the mean time I'm having to get this dental work done (charged to the credit card of course) and I get harrassed constantly by collectors. I've had some threaten me with court orders and its making me a nervous wreck. I have nothing of value anybody could take for my debts except my G4 OSX Emac (a bitchin Machintosh to the layman), and although I love it, I've resigned myself to the fact that if they take it, there's nothing I can do about it. I've also prepared myself for the fact that they may not consider my dental work applicable since I'm getting it after I've already been to lawyers about bankruptcy (although I haven't filed yet).
Anyway, I didn't mean to make your thread about me, I was just freakin and needed to get it all out.
Plus I wanted to let you know you're not alone in the booze and weed struggle.
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