Posted by rocketstar911 on July 20, 2004, at 18:55:32
In reply to Re: hmm why is life so hard, posted by TexasChic on July 14, 2004, at 12:36:26
thank you everybody for writing me back. I have been seeing a physcologist for most of my life I don't know if that's the same thing as a theripist. Anyway I am probobally going to move back here into my moms house. Which is really hard because he gets the apt. and the car. my mom has lots of dog hair and no cable. I will probobally go to a temp agency tomorrow to get some work. which is really hard for me too because I was a stay at home mom and thought it would be that way. I think it will be okay I will work second shift so my mom can watch my daughter. I don't trust daycare. I realize that even though I have a child mabye someday I can still have a famimly. My mom says my daughter is as cute as a puppy and someone would love her too. Yes I want to be alone for a while but I want to eventually have another child because my child has no cousins aunts uncles or anything like that. when i try to make life changing decisions I think about stuff like this. I know he does not love me even though he says he does. he rather hang out and sleep over his friends house, or sit in the bedroom and watch tv. He can't hold a job and he is nicer to other people than he is too me. He told me he didn't know if he could change becasue that is how he's been treated his whole life. So I said that is really sad that you rather lose your family than get a job and try to be nice or at least get some help. anyway I am trying not to love him because if I do than I won't be able to be strong enough to get a job and do the things I have to do. He thinks we just need time apart but I am sick Of him having to tell me when to leave my own house. hopefully somtime I will have a car again and my own place. On the bright side all the stuff is mine. the entertainment center, the king size bed, all my kids nice stuff of course. all the stuff on the walls all the movies. hmm I guess I feel better
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