Posted by Indie on July 16, 2004, at 11:30:49
In reply to Re: Easier said than done... » Indie, posted by B2chica on July 15, 2004, at 15:29:57
Thanks for the note. I went out to dinner with a friend last night and dumped all of my pain on him. I even confessed to my suicide attempt...something that I have never told anybody except here and to my pdoc. He just held my hand and reminded me to add him to the list of people who would be devastated by my untimely death.
Then when I got home I spoke to my best friend from high school. She scolded me for not leaning on her. She said that she could hear the depression in my voice and that I need to stop trying to deal with it on my own, that I needed to let her help me as I have helped her in the past. She said that her love and friendship is unconditional.
All of this reminded me that I am one of the lucky ones who DOES have friends and family who accept me for who I am no matter what my mood is. It reminded me to stop crying about the friends that I have lost to this stupid illness and focus on the the ones who stand by my side, always.
I hope that if you and cubic_me look around, you too can find some people who accept you in all of your beauty and all of your pain!! Think hard!! I know there is somebody. You are both too beautiful to have no one like that!!
Oh yeah...my nickname...it's kind of silly, really silly. I have used this name for years because one of my greatest fantasies is that I am the lost daughter of Indiana Jones. To this day, 31 years old, I hang on to this dream. I have great fantasies of the adventure that I could have...Silly, but it keeps me young and adventurous :)
Although I am also a big fan of the Indie Film festival. Oh so many years ago in college I got a degree in film production. I have never done much with it, but I still hope to make documentaries some day if I ever have enough money to produce them myself.
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