Posted by geri122 on July 10, 2004, at 17:01:53
In reply to Re: How do i get out? » geri122, posted by fallsfall on July 9, 2004, at 12:08:00
I have tried to talk to my mom, she just doesn't seem to understand. i told her i wanted to move out, that i couldn't be at home anymore... that im not happy, she just doesn't seem to understand. I can't live with my dad anymore, i can't be around him. he acts like everything is ok and its not. When it comes to talking to him about this situation, he would only say i am doing this for attention. To him, this is all a joke, he doesn;t understand the severity of the situation, he doesn;t want to listen to me. Im unhappy and to him that is normal for any 17 year old girl. He works with juvinal delinquents, and so he treats me like i am one. i have never been able to live my life, to make my own decisions, to just be happy! I look around and i see every one moving on in life.. living each day to its fullest, my biggest problem now a days is just living each day. Im single, all alone in the world except for the one true friend i have, ( the one i want to movein with). She is a year younger then me, but seems soo much mature then those in my grade. She understands me. She is the only one that knows that i cuts, i trust her with my life. When i am with her she makes me happy... no matter what we are doing. He family is like my, i call her mom mom, he step dad treats me like i belong, he brother calls me sis and confides in me. I know that i can't replace the family god gave me, but i just am soo much happier there. By going there i can start over, live. I just want to be a normal teenage girl. I know that the problems that i face and deal with in my head won't disappear by running, but maybe there i will be able to face the issues not hide them. I don't have parents that hit me, they physically hurt me, but emotionally i am dead.
I have talked to a few people, i can't leave and move out without being considered a run a way. I can be arrested and placed in a home. I know that is what my dad would do, he has those connections. I don't know what to do, im scared, i don't want to hurt anymore, i don't want to lay my head in a puddle of tears every night before i fo to bed, i don't want to fight with myself to get out of bed, I can't live in pain forever!
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