Posted by partlycloudy on July 8, 2004, at 12:58:22
In reply to but..., posted by justyourlaugh on July 8, 2004, at 12:24:38
> ..i dropped out before i finished my second year because i got knocked up, and never went back.
Hmm.. I never went to college or university except for some night school. I ran away from home to get married at 21. I have closed many doors that were open to me, but it has all led to who I am today. Screwed up and getting happier and more content. I used to think it would all have been different had I got a degree, pursued a career; but would I happier? I seriously doubt that I would. Instead I could end up like my sister, with a chemistry degree, a disability due to depression, and guilt for having spent all that time and money on something that she couldn't do.
> i feel like i am too old to start over..
> i just cant seem to get my foot in the door ..rather my foot out the door to become someone i like...can respect..I think that wanting more out of our lives and wanting to improve ourselves is a sign of true healing. We are the little engines that could, and we're looking at that next big mountain.
Respect and liking ourselves is actually more important (at least to me) than a formal education at this point in my life. I'll be 42 this year, and I still think that if I screw up enough courage, money, and time; that I'd like to go to school. I know now that it wouldn't define me as a success one way or another. I think of who I am NOW, where I am NOW. The past is the past, and the future is limited by my desires and practicality.
If you feel that you aren't fully an artist because your art school education is incomplete - and I beg to differ, your art is accomplished, expressive and powerful - then by all means, do it. It's not too late to pursue our dreams. How about all those old fogeys out there who take up skiing at age 70? Or finish high school, or learn to read? No such thing as too late for anybody.
> how come no one is knocking at my door ready to make me a star?
Ha! That's because I put my request in before you, sweetiepie!
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