Posted by Emme on June 28, 2004, at 0:07:23
Another semi-gloom post from moi. Okay. Well. I guess I'm looking at partial remission. I don't cry as much in the mornings. My bro thinks I look and sound much better than, say, six months ago. All sounds pretty good, huh? And hey, I'll take what I can get!
The thing is, I still can't feel pleasure the way I think I once did. I feel detached. Now maybe it's because I don't have my career together and no love life - all that logistical stuff. But I feel like being really happy or peaceful or whole is no longer something I think much about or expect to happen. I'd expect a bit of perpetual sadness in someone who's survived some major traumas. But I haven't had any. Most of the emotion I have these days is anger/rage. At least I'm acting fairly normally around my friends.
I'm going to become an emotionally limited automaton. Actually, it's probably not a bad strategy while trying to go through the motions and get life in order. "The Depressionator" "I'll be back, baby." "Resistance is futile."
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