Posted by ghost on June 17, 2004, at 23:17:51
In reply to failed at life/ failed at death (trigger), posted by kellyr. on June 17, 2004, at 15:42:15
i've been an asthmatic all my life. that said....
i got very sick once and was having a great deal of trouble breathing. something was very wrong. in my EMT class, they told us that when people are going to die, they often know it, and have an impending sense of doom. i didn't know this to be true until i was sure that something was very, very wrong with me. i wasn't going to make it through the night.
i told my husband, "i think you need to take me to the ER."
he said, "we don't have insurance." very matter-of-fact.
i said, "i don't care, i'm sick."
he replied, "you can't be that sick."i stayed up all night on the internet, people telling me to call 911, worried when i said my fingernails and lips were blue. i had every sign of impending respiratory arrest. i did make it to early the next morning.
i told my husband, "i'm going to the ER. if you want to come with me, be in the car when it leaves the driveway." and i drove 80 mph down back roads of new hampshire with my head hanging out the window to get air into my lungs, parked the car in ambulance parking, and threw myself into a wheelchair.
it turns out i had bronchitis, pneumonia, and a sinus infection, all of which triggering an asthma attack i'd been having since the previous night.
...my point is this: at what point do you become "sick enough" to justify medical bills? at what point does a human life have a monetary value? and a monetary value less than whatever a hospital can possibly charge? and at what point does someone who vowed to love and cherish you IN SICKNESS AND IN HEALTH decide when you should live and when you should die?no hospital will turn you away when you need help, and you obviously do. don't let someone who thinks human life has a monetary value stand in the way of the help you need.
please, please get help. please take care of yourself. you're the only one who can.
ghost.
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