Posted by ghost on June 16, 2004, at 10:48:30
In reply to Re: just an angsty lonely rant (long) » ghost, posted by Angel Girl on June 16, 2004, at 7:28:49
> We can only pray that she has better ways of spending her time than to look up a previous bf's posts on a msg board.
heh. actually, i'm a chick.
> Why do you fear an increase in your dosage if it could make you feel better?
good question. i never really thought about it. i guess it's subconscioius... a few months back, i had a pdoc who just kept upping my dosage instead of realizing that i needed more help than what the one med could offer. went from 7.5 mgs of the drug to 70 mgs, and nothing was improving. i was just getting sick from the drug and spiralling downward. i guess i just fear that again.
> That's so sweet of you to say that you like me when you barely even know me. I'm more used to hearing criticism and people telling me what I'm doing wrong all the time. I feel like I can't do anything right. Basically, I think the *normal* world is just sick of me and my irrational and paranoid thoughts. Actually, I'm sure you'd feel the same way as everybody else if you *really* got to know me. I don't seem to be able to maintain any kind of relationship anymore.
i don't think like everyone else. i'm crazy, remember? ;) and i hope i get the chance to *really* get to know you. i'm sure things will work out just fine.
> You got a point about therapy and the catch 22 scenerio. I'd like to say otherwise, but I'd be lying if I did, but I don't have much hope in ever being *normal* anyway.
me either.
> I totally agree with you on missing the manic episodes. I do too and I'd have to say that those are the times that I could honestly say that I felt any kind of joy. Now that they're gone, so is the joy and happiness. Only sadness remains.
are you getting any kind of help to deal with the depression that's taken over?
> Thanks for the cyber hugs. I really needed them too. I've been having a very rough week.must be in the stars... my week's been pretty rough too. and it's only wednesday!
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