Posted by partlycloudy on May 31, 2004, at 17:13:41
In reply to can anyone relate to anything I say here?, posted by Rainee on May 31, 2004, at 10:15:21
(((Rainee))) I certainly can relate to your post. I'm 41 to your 42; my mother divorced my dad when I was 16 and forbade me to visit her (she needed her space) and my dad was an absent alcoholic. I ran the house, paid the bills, took care of him when he'd come home. I did get to run away in the sense that I married at age 21.
I never went to college and I envy those with initials after their name. To me it represents fortitude and ambition, which I lack.
This little girl is hurt, afraid of being lost, and terrified of being alone. She needs to be comforted, to be safe and secure, she needs unconditional love. She also needs to recognize that love when she has it. (And at least I can do that much.)
I have only ever held entry level jobs. I have been fired from half the jobs I've ever had, and I rarely survive more than a year before I bail out or get shown the door.
I am trying to find the creative little girl who loved to draw and paint. She's in here somewhere, but it isn't time for her to come out to play yet.
I just want you to know that I have felt your pain, that I don't know why it rears its head or why it retreats, but the darkness in your days will pass and you'll be back in the light. We'll helpeach other get there.
Let us know how your new T is - give us all the dirt!
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