Posted by Magdalena on May 30, 2004, at 10:47:11
In reply to RE::: Mag, posted by mystic on May 30, 2004, at 10:11:03
hey mystic, thank you i'm glad at least you guys can understand, this morning was brutal my bf sent me a messege and it made me really sad, this is what it said. "Im tired of this im going to stop making plans with you cause all you do is let me down. I try so hard to go out and have some fun but its like you dont want that. Its been 10 months almost ive been trying to get you to go to the movies with me and its like u dont want to. I feel like i should stop trying." this made me really really sad...the truth is i havent told him about my anxiety all he knows is that i have depression but i dont know how to explain this anxiety to him, i hate it, i dont want him to think less of me...i wish i could do all these 'normal' things that other couples do, like the movies! i wish i could sit through one and not even think about it, its true i always make excuses why i dont want to go cause what am i supposed to say "umm i dont want to go cause i will start to feel unconfortable and freak out because of reasons i dont know, ps. your girlfriend is insane. "
i know im being hard on myself i just dont want my bf to think i dont want to do these things with him...i feel like i am ruining the only thing in my life right now that is making me soo happy.
Mystic thank you for your kind words, and yes Mrs C is wonderful too...im glad i have you guys to remind me that i am not alone.
love Mags
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