Posted by LynneDa on April 23, 2004, at 9:13:40
In reply to Re: Jlynne and LynneDa, posted by SandyWeb on April 23, 2004, at 8:33:55
Sandy -
We ALL stumble from time to time, and sometimes it takes a while to get back on track. (But I understand feeling like a fool - I've been there and still have feelings of foolishness when I allow myself to have certain expectations and it doesn't work out, stupid, stupid me I think to myself!)This part of your life is NOT the sum total of who you are!! The core of who you are has not changed. Look at what you did. Most people don't do anything like that in their whole lives!
Also, you got the application for the Victim Services volunteer position. I've always wanted to do something like that, but never even checked into it! At least you had the energy to take that first step.
Sandy, there are times in life when you give and times when you have to take. I'm sure you've deposited enough good that the universe can owe you a little if you have to just take for a bit :-). That was/is a really hard thing for me to embrace, as it probably is for most women who are caretakers by nature. You are human, sweetie! It's okay not to have much to offer right now - You're in a re-building stage.
And, you won't be a bag lady! I don't know your whole situation, but you have too much on the ball to end up like that. You have perseverance and strength and you had a day or so where you felt like your old self. You haven't lost her, she's still in there. Life is tough but I think you have proof that you are tougher :-)
Hang in there girlfriend!! Let me know if there's anything specific or concrete I can do for you, okay?
~ Lynne
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> I feel like such a fool. Who'd a thunk that surfing would be so hard?? *smile*
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> I pulled out my SwissAir mementos today. I put my little "certificates" back up in their frames, brought out my ID badges again, looked through some paperwork. If nothing else, I helped in THAT situation, right? If nothing else, I was of some use to the people in the morgue.
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> One letter I was sent reads: "We are pleased as members of the Office of the Chief Medical Examiner to send you this commemorative pin honoring your work at the B Hanger mortuary where the human remains were examined, identified, and kept. Many will know from their personal experiences of the work that there was pride but often at a price. We all hope that this will be a keepsake and that as you remember the events, above all else you will be proud of your accomplishment. Thank you for helping us."
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> And now I get to be a bag-lady. And now I'm not worth diddly. And now I'm just exposed to the world as the fool I am. I guess I don't have much to offer anymore.
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> I'm sad.
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> Sandy
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