Posted by SandyWeb on April 22, 2004, at 9:12:08
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by LynneDa on April 21, 2004, at 10:06:46
Hi girls,
I really enjoyed your messages! You make me smile! Thank you for making me feel so good.
I can not believe that I still feel fine! It's exciting to feel "high". Lol. I'm beginning to become terrified that this means I'm going to plummet soon (no, no, no).....but this feeling so far is GREAT. There's a certain amount of stability in my thinking process that I haven't felt for many a day! I almost feel normal! HA!!
I phoned the police and got a volunteer application mailed to me for Victim Services. I figured that I would have been poor for the next two years anyways, since I would have been finishing up my schooling and not working for money. So I might as well volunteer in an area that I enjoy.....and MAYBE after the two years, a door will open for some sort of employment. Who knows? But I certainly have a wide variety of life experiences that can be utilized within Victim Services. I'm just scared that a background check will show up my "emotional disturbance". DARN. Well, if I'm meant to volunteer there....then nothing can prevent that.
It's nice to start feeling a sense of myself again. And thank you for the warning that the "down" times will sneak up on me. I think I'm past the point of making plans and setting dates, but I'll need to be aware of acting impulsively when the bad thoughts come back, right? Gosh, maybe they WON'T come back. Maybe my coping skills have returned. Please, please, please. I don't want to go back to feeling the way I was before. And is it normal to feel so good so quickly?? I HOPE SO!!! *big smile*
Hey, I'm reading a book again. The brain isn't going "clickety-CLANK" anymore. Lol!!! It's nice to curl up with a story.
The sun has left us again and it's freezing around here. I'm going to grab a blanket and go back to my book.
Thanks for being here for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hugs,
Sandy
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