Too many pots on the stove at once!

Posted by rainyday on April 20, 2004, at 7:20:31

I feel like I am running around a theatre screaming FIRE! I have been reading SO many books on creativity, spirituality, empowerment, development... I am a school project gone wrong. No focus, nothing grabbing me, just looking everywhere for something to feed a gnawing emptiness inside. I feel like I don't really fit in anywhere: unable to make friends, unwilling to put myself in situations where I might make friends because I am no good at it. I'm no good at work (where I just answer the phones, for goodness' sake!), can't keep a committment to exercise or diet. I get a head full of ideas and it's like they run out of my head onto the pillow overnight. Not that I could carry any of them out.
Running and getting nowhere fast. Can't concentrate on calming or slowing down my thoughts. I hate myself this way.
My husband gives me a hard time about having to take ambien to sleep - but my meds jump me up so bad, I'll lie there for hours otherwise. So I feel like I'm no good even at SLEEPING.
Yuck, yuck, yuck. Can I trade this soul in for a used one??

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Too many pots on the stove at once! rainyday 4/20/04
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