Posted by spoc on April 19, 2004, at 18:29:50
In reply to Well, here's the facts, posted by Dinah on April 19, 2004, at 17:57:51
> And I don't know that they add up to social phobia or something else.
>
> ...Added together to create me. I feel that there is something slimy and icky about me. Something that it is indescribably rude to foist onto others. And I am so careful not to bother anyone with talk or eye contact or social discourse or common courtesy that I can be enormously rude. And I know it and I can't stop it. Sometimes I'm ok, but sometimes all the will and dissociation in the world can't force me to be social with others. >Dinah, while I have symptom overlap into several areas, I have no knowledge in this one yet (I am as yet *relatively* untreated/dx-ed, amazingly). But wanted to say -- although you have a million and one people here telling you this already -- how much I enjoy how you express yourself, and the range of emotions and qualities, including humor, that you convey so well even within just a few sentences. You have so much personality and so much to offer, people really are missing out with you feeling you're an intrusion and staying away! You're SO not icky -- I'm sure people get very excited to see that yours is one of the responses to a post, and in real life if more people knew you I'm sure they'd get happy to see you coming too! (But I do understand there's more to it than that.)
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