Posted by karen_kay on April 9, 2004, at 13:50:16
In reply to K.k...you ain't getting out of this one easy..:-) » karen_kay, posted by jay on April 9, 2004, at 2:38:12
i was trying to turn this back into a sort of humorous post once again but now i somehow feel the need to become serious again. ok, i suppose if i must, i must....
my action, my style (as you call it)... hmmm, i thought and pondered this for about 30 seconds. and i don't think i'm neither gentle nor soft enough. i don't yell. (i do however cackle when something is funny). i'm a 'touchy feely' type of person at times, but mostly to strangers, not to people i'm close to. i like to touch strangers' hands and arms, but not in a flirty way. more in a sort of polite, please get in front of me, you don't have many items sort of way. and yes, i always let people in front of me at the grocery. Always. i'm in no hurry. and i'm never, ever rude to wait staff. and i always talk to my postal carrier. everyday in fact. she tries to guess how much my bills are. my dog loves her, so she must be a wonderful person. and i smile at everyone i pass on the street, why wouldn't you? and telemarketers are my favorite. i like when they call. some people consider them annoying. i enjoy the conversation. if you talk to them, they will talk back. give it a try sometime. i was a telemarketer for a while. i enjoyed it. one lady asked for a cd because her husband was dying and he just loved the artist and she couldn't afford it. i told her to get it and make a copy on analog and send it back, that we'd pay for the shipping. it's amazing how you can connect with people. is this being polite? hardly. it's not nearly enough, compared to what i could be doing with my life dear. wasting time, that's what i'm doing.... (dear me, am i complaining again? :) *i'm good enough, smart enough and people like me!!!!
about grace and listening..... i like to think i listen. i adore listening to people talk. i like to believe that i'm perseptive in that i pick up on what i think people need and want to hear. however, i'm not so great at telling them that. i just love hearing people talk about what they've learned. and what they think and feel. and know. or think they know. i could listen to someone talk forever, without adding in my own input, as i really don't always feel i have much to say. what i don't like is listening to someone beat themselves up. especially when i know in my heart that all people are good people. and i really dislike hearing someone try to tell me otherwise. it just really hurts me to hear someone say that they think bad thoughts about themselves or other people. i almost take it as a personal attack on my character, since i feel that everyone is good, that we are all amazing.
now, i don't take my time when i do anything and i always blurt things out, but not when it really matters. and i think that when i blurt things, it comes from my heart. and since i honestly believe i have a very good heart, i don't fall short. i always have the best intentions. this is very true.
about dynamics: as in energy? or do you mean a dynamic personality, as in changing or have many sides? what's your definition? i'd take that meaning to be that i have many sides. now i could be wrong in assuming that is what you meant. and if so, poor karen has a red face. ok, maybe not. do explain if i'm incorrect, as i'm always up for a little enlightenment as well....
i think that i have many sides to my personality. (i am dx with bipolar disorder, you know) i think that can be seen on the boards and would rather not be boastful about how very wonderful i am here. i wouldn't want to make anyone feel inferior you know :)
about compassion: why would it have to be a non-threatening girl? that's curious you said that. when someone's pulled over on the road, i always offer a ride. no question. call me dangerous, but in the past, people have done the same for me and it's my opportunity to pay it back. and if i have money on me, yes, i'd give it out i a heartbeat. regardless of whether the person asking is male or female. threatening or nonthreatening. is there a such thing as threatening? people are people dear. i wouldn't assume someone is threatening looking because he was male. (i hope this doesn't sound the least bit like i'm at all annoyed with you darling. i'm still madly in love with you)Existentialism you say? now i'm head over heels in love with you.... we should talk more. i'm listening. do you read albert camus? existentialism i grasp, possibly endorse. still questioning though. it's ok to question, isn't it? i don't (regrettably) read much Plato or Homer or Socrates, though i know i should. i've read a few things but only as required for the few philosophy classes i have under my belt. i would love to be a philosophy major, but what in the world would i do with that? sit around and think all the time? that's certainly not healthy for me. and i believe at this point, i'm a good person, (for the most part) so more philosophy classes would only make me question more that what i'm doing at this point just isn't nearly enough, feel me? and i struggle with that daily...
so, emotional intelligence, hmmmm. how'd you rate me on that one? i'd say about a potential to do 10, yet i only do about a 4.... quite sad isn't it?
electronica bands.... nope, must be too young. sorry jay. thanks for making me think about things. now, if i can only put the positive spin on myself like i seem to do with everything else, huh? if we are only here to learn (as i think) what am i missing???? can someone point it out to me???? arg!
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