Posted by greywolf on March 30, 2004, at 10:09:55
In reply to Re: Maybe you can live my life better » greywolf, posted by rainyday on March 30, 2004, at 9:03:29
Rainyday:
It's disheartening isn't it? If you let people see how you really live, they couldn't help but get the idea that there really is a problem. But their response is a real concern. In my experience, not too many people are truly comfortable knowing about the real extent of someone's bipolar problems, and those who want to know even if they aren't comfortable tend to be the family and friends you'll cause the most worry and unhappiness to if you tell them. Ergo, the masking.
Of course, you can become so good at hiding what's going on that right when you need support the most, you can't go to your friends because they'd never take it seriously. I doubt my friends could even comprehend part of the hell I feel I'm in because they would be so shocked to find out I'm not the happy guy they think I am (I think some suspect that there's something wrong, but in a good way--like "he's one of those creative types, so he's a little zany"). If they only knew how much effort it takes to maintain a facade consistent with the hypomanic states they most often associate with me.
Hang in there.
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