Posted by lonelygirl on March 28, 2004, at 16:47:47
I am at the computer lab, supposed to be working on a group project that’s due tomorrow. I can’t do my part of the work! I am trying but I am just too f***ing stupid and lazy to understand it and do it. These people are counting on me! It is enough that I am f***ing up my own life, but now I am f***ing up other people’s, too. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???
I don’t understand myself any more. Nothing makes sense! I feel like I do not have control over my life. I want to do the work but I can’t. There is no reason that I can’t, but I can’t. I don’t understand it and it makes me feel insane. I don’t know what to do any more. I just can’t deal with things any more. I hate my life and I hate myself. If I were someone else, I would just beat the living shit out of me. I am just so mad. I can’t stand it. My life is just falling apart and I don’t know what to do.
poster:lonelygirl
thread:329535
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