Posted by Jai Narayan on March 23, 2004, at 20:37:41
In reply to Re: Mom » Jai Narayan, posted by kellyr on March 23, 2004, at 19:58:56
> My dad committed sucide by cop when I was 12 yrs old
*do you mean a policeman killed him? If so why?
> We were close I was "daddys little girl" to him, I was the last to talk to him before he died on Fathers Day:-( he asked me to come live w/ him:-( I was scared to say yes, cause my mom would of beat me to nothing]:-< I would of loved to have lived w/ him, he was so nice & all my friends liked him0:-)* I can see that you regret not moving in with your dad. It sound's like your dad was pretty special to you.
I loved my dad and struggled with my mom.
My mom was abusive too.
I was a daddy's girl as well.
Oh, Kelly your life story is so painful.>
> The day after his death, When I got home from school my mom told me to come inside, she told me that my father died last night, I didn't cry just stood there, she yelled at me "why don't you cry, didn't you love him?" she then told me to got to my room. I hated her for that:-(*you must have been so stunned....to lose the only parent that was kind to you.
> I didn't cry or believe that he was dead, intil the new yrs eve ball was droping, my heart was like melted wax:-( And then I started to think about beening w/ him, killing myself to be w/ him again, cause the more I grew the more that it showed:-(*Well I hope that you can do some good work with your therapist. I can't stress enough how much EMDR helped me with the traumas in my life.
take care Kellyr.
> Kellyr.
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