Posted by kellyr on March 21, 2004, at 14:27:15
In reply to Mom, posted by Jai Narayan on March 20, 2004, at 19:09:18
Even w/ sharing I feel alone sometimes, But I don't know how my new therpist well reacted to all I have to say about what she done to me, he just knows that I was abused by her. Maybe that's why he wants me to write it cause I have such a hard time talking. But if I don't say anything to him I'm going to loose it even more.
(My mom, she like death that attackes from all sides; and when I was suffering, though in my confusion I said "I can't trust anyone".How did I do it?
I disconnected my mind from what was real, so the time I got to my teen yrs I started to so do drugs & drink alote, I know it was the wronge thing to do, but it was alote of stuff to deal w/. Her abusing me, my neighber sexaully abuseing me, & my fathers suicide. By the time I was 17yrs old I shut down & was in the hospital for 9mos. so drugs didn't help.
As a adult my husband has been there throw all the cring, the nightmares that usaually wined up hitting my husband in my sleep or other things that in the way. so if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be alive.
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