Posted by shar on March 20, 2004, at 15:17:58
In reply to Alrighty Then, posted by kid47 on March 19, 2004, at 1:55:16
Kid,
I very much agree that we too often forget that a lot of what goes on with us is chemistry. Yet we still expect to be the best at whatever we undertake (and often are, despite the inherent difficulties). I've noticed a lot of people on this board have the bar raised so high it's almost impossible to reach, and every perceived flaw is magnified tenfold, and any error we make or mistaken words we utter are used as weapons against ourselves over and over again.I've known you a while, and I can understand both sides of the experience you describe. It's like being a double agent or something, only we're the good guy and the bad guy to our own selves (with the good guy hardly ever getting anything close to equal time). Basically, however lousy we feel, most of us go on trying to do the right thing and living with all the integrity we can muster--including you. And, believe it or not, it usually amounts to a LOT of integrity, and a lot of good works, in spite of being crazy or crazed or suicidal or whatever ails us.
What am I trying to say? hmmm. I think maybe "onward through the fog" sums it up nicely. (That's the 'motto' of a local head shop here, and so very true, I've always felt.)
Give the good guy a little more time--equal time, even. And keep writing, singing the blues, and breathing in and out. I have a lot of respect for you, and admiration, Krafty. Hang in there.
Shar
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