Posted by Karen_kay on January 8, 2004, at 21:22:12
In reply to Re: Were his shoes brown? » Karen_kay, posted by Dinah on January 8, 2004, at 19:36:48
For some reason it threw me off that you responded. I don't know I guess I'm just used to Miss Honey responding here and your response actually kind of scared me. I actually reread the post to "be sure I didn't write anything bad." WHAT?? I'm just not feeling myself lately, honestly. I don't know what's going on but I really need to get it figured out.
I tell him often that I don't think he likes me and he just appears frustrated by it. I think that he thinks I'm using it as a ploy to waste time. That he honestly thinks that he is so completely neutral that there should be no reason for me to think that. Maybe he doesn't think it should matter whether he likes me or not. Maybe it shouldn't, honestly. This is JUST a business relationship in a sense.
I think if I broach the subject of changing therapists then he'll just say, "Well, that's up to you." I've asked in the past about discontinuing therapy and that's how he answered. But, I wasn't serious and I'm sure he knew it. But this time I really think I am. I really don't think I want to continue. I can handle having to work hard to remember things. And I can handle being stereotyped as being "stupid" because I forget who people are and how old I am. But I can't handle this anxiety and I can't handle the memories that are being brought up and the fear that I'm facing right now. Seriously!
And I'm certain your therapist is very fond of you. He's worked with you for quite a while now. He knows so much about you. I know very little about you and have grown quite fond of you. How could he not be fond of you? He made a mistake last week and I hope he apologizes for it. It was uncalled for. I think if you ask him, the results will be very good for you. He will tell you how much he cares for you. And that's great. I just wish I had that kind of relationship with my therapist. I do sometimes, just not all the time.
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