Posted by kara lynne on January 5, 2004, at 14:23:58
In reply to Re:correction, posted by zenhussy on January 5, 2004, at 10:59:59
-let the twit sweat out his idiocy in bikram-
Oh, I wanna say it to him! Bad!
He's far too wimpy to warrant a bat by the bed (geez, sorry to hear about that zh--although I think a self-defense class is a great idea), it's more like he does these little 'nanny nanny' drive-bys just to display his arrogance and my inferiority. Course now that he's armed with epiphanys and bikram yoga he might be a more formidable enemy. I played nice too, up until a couple of weeks ago, really. I kept expecting him to say something as heartfelt about me as he did about his new house or his stray cat. It's almost what he doesn't do that hurts more than anything, just like it did when we were together. That's why I need to get that he really is intending to hurt me, even it is by suggesting I do yoga.
I've avoided blocking him until now, maybe because of that infernal shred of hope. I also haven't told not to ever email me again, which I did do last night, so we'll see what happens. I did say not to contact me, but he couldn't keep from imposing his narcissism so I had to use the 'ever' word which was hard for me. I guess this has been a lesson for me in drawing boundaries, as much as not allowing him to trample over them.
I wish I could have seen my way clear in the first year too, rather than the fourth--especially at this point in my life. But the relationship mirrored those irascible core issues. I don't know, sometimes I think that's gonna be the hardest thing to forgive myself for--staying so long.
Thanks zh, I really appreciate it.
poster:kara lynne
thread:296579
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20031229/msgs/296771.html