Posted by kara lynne on December 14, 2003, at 3:21:53
In reply to Re: My ex's last comment...octo, posted by kara lynne on December 14, 2003, at 2:04:15
I go along and I do what I'm supposed to do. I don't call him. I feel a bit stronger. Then this new spate of emails. I asked him not to write, but he wrote a 'goodbye' which triggered me no end and I wrote back. Mistake. My angry response yielded a letter which blamed that as the poison in the relationship, with my ex the hapless recipient, just trying to love me the best he could in the face of such pathetic contempt (mine).
And now I'm back right where I started. He apologizes for not giving me what I wanted, but the apology is written to sting, and it does. The implication is that someone as bitter and demanding as myself will never get 'what I want'.
Is there justice? Anywhere? Do I get heard? I think not. I think he gets to move on believing his story, and I get to stay stuck not believing in myself, and therefore believing his story.
I'm (what is that word when you have a high fever..). Probably not a good idea to take action right now, at 1am. Something in me says I could though, and we could talk it through. But I'm too tired.
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