Posted by blink23 on November 6, 2003, at 22:00:55
In reply to Re: What Do You Say.., posted by karen_kay on November 6, 2003, at 18:14:49
That helps me out a little bit on starting to communicate with her, but the thing is about 2 months i guess; We were just in the session for follow up with the medication and how it makes me feel and stuff, and for some reason I just came out litterly I blurted it out of no where and told her what happened. I was actually shocked myself that i did that, after she asked me to talk about it, i told her that it was an anquaintances boyfriends 2 friends, and that I couldnt press charges becuse they both said it was consentiual....and then thats it i just broke down. like i froze and couldnt talk any more just started hysterical crying like i did in the begning with the first therpist, so thats kinda where im stuck, I feel like ok she knows what happened to me, thinks i dont wanna talk about it, i know she wouldnt avoid the conversation if I brought it up, but its like 2 months ago this happened. and know its comming around again. I just feel weird on bringing it up again to her. My bigest thing is I think is that before all this happened I was a VERY strong person emotionaly, mentally, and physically.Had a great personality, got along with anyone. I just enjoyed life. I feel like I lost the emotional part because i was used to always turning the bad to good, you know I spoke my feelings things would have to turn out the right way, or there was trouble ya know..and the thing that really ticks me off is that these 2 shi** who did this to me walk away with nothing, NO charges and they got on with there life like nothing happened..and i know who these people are..and that kills me ..and Im still here. Mentally and physically I am just drained on trying to think I am the same person I was!!
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