Posted by deirdrehbrt on November 2, 2003, at 23:19:52
In reply to Fear and loneliness; long and laden., posted by kara lynne on November 2, 2003, at 16:11:17
Boy do I know what you mean about the "imposter" stuff. I was talking about that with my therapist last week. I think that this is just my (and your?) impression, but really the rest of the world doesn't know any more than we do. I don't know how to convince myself that it is true. If I figure it out, I'll let you know.
Sounds like your dad is panicking a bit. Maybe if you found out a little more about why he changed his mind you would feel better.
Paying the loan yourself doesn't sound like much fun at all, but if you have to do it, I would think that you could figure out a way to make that happen.
I think part of your fear is because you aren't convinced that you will be able to use your new career. Why would you have less competence than other people who have passed the classes and the tests? Are you afraid that doing your job badly will hurt other people? Maybe you can investigate these fears (with someone who is currently doing the job, or with your teachers)?
One step at a time. You don't have to have paid the whole thing already.
It will be OK.
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