Posted by galkeepinon on October 7, 2003, at 2:39:57
In reply to Requiem For A Nightmare, posted by kara lynne on October 7, 2003, at 0:28:23
I'm glad youu didn't 'delete' this post. You're getting a lot of good advice and feedback kara lynne. It helps that you get this stuff out of you.
I felt like you did just last week.
Somehow, somewhere, you've got to believe you are worthy, I'm working on it too.
kara lynne 'dropping off the face of the earth' may affect more people than you think. What about a local grocer who knows you? Your mailman/woman?A person who you have shared things with, hoping that person was concerned and wanted only the best for you? What about the people on this board who care? I'm sure you have made a positive difference in all these people's lives, and I'm sure many more. Mine included.
No fear hun, people did respond to your post:-)
Starbursts rock!!!! So maybe tonight cook salmon with those great fatty acids~good for the brain. I think you're entitled to Starbursts for dinner, why not?!
Call your doctor today and tell him the mistake he made and politely ask him to fix it.
Doctors who give samples are God-sends!
You are not a 'drug-seeking low life' kara lynne, it was your doctor's responsibility to give you enough sleeping medication, regardless that he gave you samples. Maybe you should have checked to see if he did give you enough, but you didn't and that's ok, this can be fixed. Try to learn from it, it may sound trite, but you'll remember next time to check to see that your doc took care of his responsibilities to you as his patient.
Everything happens for a reason....
try to believe that.
Just my 2 cents worth.
Hang in there...> I keep writing posts and then deleting them. That little white box comes up that says, Are you sure you want to delete this? Well it's cool if you do... So I do.
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> I feel alienated. In all areas. If I dropped off the face of the earth I'm not sure it would affect anyone. Truly. Maybe for a minute my parents would flinch out of fabricated guilt. A couple of people would say, Oh, gee that's too bad. And that would be about it. Not that that's a good reason to fall off the face of the earth, but still it doesn't feel too good.
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> I watched Requiem for a Dream the other night on television--boy did that give me nightmares. If you've ever seen it, I've been feeling like Ellen Burstyn ever since then each time I go to take a pill. I feel like I'm going to end up like her at the end, getting ECT and drooling my way into a life of tortured semi-consciousness. If you haven't seen it, don't--unless you want to tread the waters of utter despair just for the fun of it. But the acting was stunning--I'll never understand how Ellen didn't get an Academy Award for that performance over Julia Robert's sort of fluffy Erin Brokavich.
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> I feel like the girl in school who has coodies. No one wants to sit next to her or they'll catch them. I don't FiTiNaNyWhErE, in any room, any club, any thread.
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> And yet I'm writing this post---why? To challenge myself?
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> So I can look tomorrow in fear that no one has responded and find sweet fallsfall's name underneath mine?
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> I ate Starburst candy for dinner.
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> I asked my doctor to refill my sleeping med. at my appt. today. He said, "I'll do better than that--I'll give you samples." Well I walked out the door and realized he'd given me samples for 6 days, instead of a prescription for 30. I love to feel like a drug seeking low life. It does wonders for my overall confidence.
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