Posted by Susan J on September 16, 2003, at 9:47:10
In reply to :(, posted by Emme on September 15, 2003, at 22:15:43
> worn out. can't see options. can't see my way to a better, happy life. can't tackle it. tired of fighting. wanna go, want out, but am afraid to and have too much to do to get affairs in order anyway. darned if I do, darned if I don't. sigh. short upcoming trip is one thing keeping me going. i hope it continues to be enough. I'm tired.
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> Em<<Hiya,
I'm know I'm late posting in this thread. I feel *exactly* the same way you do. It's been 2 years of he-- and I don't see any end in sight. Just had a huge fight with the one guy who's always been supportive, and now he's probably gone. I've wished for death to end the pain, but I'm too scared to bring it on. And then, I'll wake up and things will seem a bit better....I still cry, but don't wish for death...
No boyfriend, no prospects of anyone ever loving me. No kids, no happiness. Just a little dog who doesn't deserve to be around someone in so much pain who won't even get up off the couch to play.
All I can say is this. Don't end the game now. If you end it now, you'll be ending it as a person who lost the game, and you'll hurt people who care about you. Each day you wake up, there's at least a chance that things will get better. One thing that is helping me right now is to be *angry* at depression. How dare it screw up my life? I would never let any *person* screw up my life, why should I let this?
It's a fight you can win. You have friends. We're here. We'll always listen.
Susan
poster:Susan J
thread:260475
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