Posted by Heather66 on September 5, 2003, at 15:58:55
I've had a terrible, terrible five weeks... at first I thought it was a bad week. Then a bad two weeks... then three... I am unable to motivate myself. I have no energy. I am blaming it on my diet. I am trying desperately to lose the thirty pounds I have put on in the last two years of being on medication. So I am basically avoiding Carbohydrates - until last night, I gave in and had two Dunkin Donuts. And bread. And chocolate. And today - back to fast food. Do I always need something to blame? If I start eating what I want to again, will I feel better? But then will I continue to gain weight? I am no good at dieting. And I do exercise (not as often as I should, but more than a lot of people).
Maybe I could go to my regular junk-food diet and see if i feel better - then be angry that I am gaining weight. I just can't make any decisions. This is just awful. I don't know if it's the depression, the diet, I don't know how I will ever feel better. I can't decide a thing right now. It is so awful.
poster:Heather66
thread:257356
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