Posted by Tabitha on September 1, 2003, at 13:41:42
In reply to Exercise is way overrated, posted by Dinah on September 1, 2003, at 6:48:15
Loneliness, depression, and anxiety. It goes round and round doesn't it? I'm in the soup with you these days. My therapist just seems like a nag to me lately, so I'm not feeling close to anyone.I'm sorry all your physical exercise isn't at least helping you sleep. I've been doing a lot of housework, moving stuff around, putting together furniture, curtains, etc, and I notice how weak all my muscles are. They get fatigued almost immediatly with any exertion, so all exercise is uncomfortable. I remember when I took up jogging, it was just so exhausting, and I thought I'd get accustomed to it, but I never did. It was always exhausting. I never enjoyed any exercise except for gentle yoga. Walking is OK for me too.
I was reading up on attachment theory lately, trying to get to the bottom of the painful loneliness that is my constant companion lately. I'm getting so familiar with the feeling. I really feel like a little child, scared in my bed, wanting to be picked up and comforted, but nobody is there, so eventually I withdraw, shut down, and turn inward. I wonder if that isn't the root of all my introverted, self-obsessed, depressive personality. What to do with this insight, I don't know. I'm trying to just feel the loneliness fully.
BTW thanks for the reminder that married people can feel lonely too. I've been blaming it all on my single childless state.
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