Posted by Tabitha on August 7, 2003, at 1:32:48
In reply to Re: Yet another update... Panic, posted by Tabitha on August 6, 2003, at 12:10:05
I'm suddenly paranoid about posting details about my job situation, like somebody will know me. Yipes.
My boss is mad at me, he sent a rather nasty email saying people told him I was saying bad things about my job, and he ranted and raved about how unfair this was of me, and how I shouldn't lower the group morale, etc etc, and also I was supposed to finish a whole project in my last 2 days. It was really shaming, and he didn't say who told him these things, or exactly what they said. This is a guy who's always saccharine nice, so it was shocking to boot.
Wow, that hurt. I've been socializing with the junior folks this week, that I don't normally do, and apparently a couple of them reported back to him, that set this off.
I didn't think I'd said anything too bad, but I've been open about the fact that I haven't been very busy lately. Which is true. And I've probably made it clear I was upset they wouldn't give me leave of absence, and that I'm looking forward to not working. I was really trying not to badmouth the company. I didn't. Lots of OTHER people were complaining, and showing very very low morale, worse than me, so I'm not the one that lowered morale. The company is struggling, and my boss wants to wear the rose colored glasses, and I'm supposed to also keep up the lie that everything is OK. People aren't stupid you know.
Now I'm actually supposed to attend an 8am meeting and finish a whole project in 2 days and somehow do what I thought was important, which was to do a writeup to try and transfer some knowledge, which seems more important than doing one more stupid project.
It hurts that here I was finally socializing with people and somebody tattled on me and got me in trouble with the boss. And of course he didn't say who it was, which just makes it more maddening.
My whole goal was to leave on good terms.
I guess I'd better just not talk to anyone anymore. I didn't realize I was saying anything bad.
They're still having a going-away lunch for me tomorrow, and a going-away party on Sunday, and now I'm afraid to talk to anyone.
I've been in such a good mood this week from taking it easy and speaking freely and socializing, not being in such a workaholic box. I was even thinking that gee, if I had been more like this all along, I might have been happier. Well, so much for that theory. Apparently being my happier freer self is not acceptable.
Just all the more evidence that... I need to get out of there! Soon!
I let this make me feel awful. I was going to go attend a social event tonight, but stayed working til 9pm instead.
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