Posted by alluredbit on August 4, 2003, at 20:31:46
In reply to Effexor Club is a great idea » alluredbit, posted by KimberlyDi on August 4, 2003, at 9:12:08
Thank Kimberly for your welcome. I am in the third day on 37 mg and I can't feel much, except some slight stomach irritation. I do hear crispy-rice popping in the back of my head, but I hear that without meds for many years now.. After five days I will up the dose to 75mg, and stay there for 6 weeks.
But how this thing works exactly? I tried to do my Tai Chi today, but I am still forcing myself. I tried anyways, I went to the big rocks at the Lake (I live near Chicago) where I used to practice years ago, but today I still hated the attention I received.
My threapist is telling me to keep trying, but it is hard when you just hate to do it as soon as someone approaches. Not the talking part that bothers me, but I feel like my privacy, my personal space is invaded. Very stupid indeed, people keep generous distance, it is a public location, they are very friendly and they don't want to annoy me.. So, when my medication works will these unreasonable feelings go away, or they always stay but I will be able to ignore the feelings? I mean how does this work based on experience, not on sales broshures or (no offence intended) from academic point of view?
In the past I never really cared for any audience, I always prefered if people don't show up to watch.. But when they did I was able to ignore anything and anybody while practicing. Now I can't, and of course, you can't practice and enjoy your art that way. Also, in the past when I stopped and they started asking questions I was already in different mindset and answering was no problem - actually, I made a few friends that way. So, my therapist is telling me that when they find a med that works I might even enjoy the attention, because he suspects that even that mild rejection was an early sign of social un-comfort. Hard to believe.
Oh, btw, I seem to be a perfect match for Effexor.. I have depression and social axinety, with all the stress-related axinety. Tai Chi was very good to me so far in managing stress related issues, until depression and the social thing slammed down on me a few years ago. I really wish meds would work, even if they turn me into a nicer person than I ever was :)
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