Posted by kara lynne on July 22, 2003, at 13:31:47
In reply to (((Kara Lynne))), posted by whiterabbit on July 22, 2003, at 9:32:36
Hi Gracie,
My counselor was just speaking of a similar thing; that once you start using your gifts (or volunteering, like you say) windows begin to open. I am scared sh**less to start looking for a real job, although that would probably be a good start. Maybe I'll take Miller up on her suggestion because I'm just lost about organizing a resume'. It's hard when you don't feel compelled to do anything, but ' do the action and the feelings follow'---yadda yadda I know it's true, but I'm still stuck in quicksand.The thing about last night's class-- it's a meditation class that I've been going to on and off for 10 years with essentially the same group of people. Although they have had their moments, I think I can safely say none have ever hit the skids in the way we know it. The teacher insists we all have the same struggles as women, but I have always felt alienated in this way. And I now think it is a very real way.
I have been to 12 step groups in the past-- I went to an AA meeting 2 weeks ago because I was so desperately lonely (and drinking's not even my thing). I couldn't connect at that particular meeting, although I'm not saying I couldn't try another venue. I think I would feel much better if I were among people from my planet.
Last night's meditation was about where you put the focus in your life--how if you put the focus on what is right you will attract more of it, rather than on everything you are lacking--which will attract more lack. I'm not saying it well because I don't fully understand it. I could never do the affirmation bunny thing-- it's very difficult for me to focus on what is working in my life right now without feeling like a complete liar.
I think you're right though, I am hanging out with the wrong people. Are you a nurse?
thank you gracie.
poster:kara lynne
thread:244133
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