Posted by giget on July 18, 2003, at 7:35:37
It seems like the crying always starts on the drive home, I get overwhelmed and finaly can let out the tears.... I watched on my way home for places to run off the road... They have put guard rails around the posts of the bridges over the expressway. I thought that would be a good idea... 75 mph hitting a concret wall... what is the percentage of people who live through that?
WEll I finally got home a mess and watched some tv, and finally went to bed, tears and all. I am just so depressed and can not even think straight. I was about to fall asleep when my cell phone rang in the other room at about 12:00am... I decided to see who it was and it rang again.................... my heart dropped it was him. I just could not answer it, I was a mess and I know that he just was calling to tell me to stop calling him and leave him alone. It was your decision to leave me and all I have seen since is the bad side of you... I have heard it all before.
But no voice mail, and now I was upset again, and not sleeping. Did not get much sleep last night... it was just too painful. He was more than likely drinking and decided to call to tell me off. I don't want to be here... not at work.. not at home.. no where
I am so tired of being depressed and mental...
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