Posted by yesac on July 12, 2003, at 15:41:20
In reply to I feel guilty..., posted by Penny on July 12, 2003, at 9:15:57
> for feeling this way and for posting about my troubles here when so many others have so many troubles of their own. I too am worried about Racer and about yesac and others, and yet, I feel I can't be much help right now. :-(
Like I said above, I feel guilty about that too, like I'm not supporting anyone else, only going on about myself and expecting people to support ME.
But, I want you to know that you have helped me. A lot. Everyone here has.
I'm sorry about the work situation. I don't really know what to say since I sort of have no real concept of what you do. But hopefully you can work things out with your boss, maybe even say something like "I'm having a hard time right now" and he'll be more understanding?
> My brother is visiting me for the weekend and he noticed a change in my demeanor, but I can't really talk to him about it as he doesn't understand. I'm glad he's here, but also frustrated because I don't feel like being social. I suppose it's good that I'm not alone.
I know just what you mean. I keep trying to get my sister to visit but she hasn't. And I find myself wondering, what if she did? Would I be able to entertain her enough or would she just think "god, meghan's life really IS boring and awful?" But last weekend at home, she did comment that I seemed "out of it" which I guess was an accurate description due to my barely talking, being completely without humor, and mainly being trapped in my own little world of suicidal thoughts and feeling bad about myself and my life. And she doesn't understand either. I just can't really communicate about this pain with my family, which I think leads a lot to this feeling of disconnectedness.
But I hope that you can enjoy being with your brother. I wish I had been able to enjoy my time with my family more. In my opinion, I think that you should just make yourself go out with him and do some activities, because as hard as they might be, at least you won't be there with your pills.
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> Keep thinking about all the pills I have and how easy it would be to take them.I know just what you mean. I've been there time and time again. Amazed, really, at how easy it would be. I even have gotten kind of excited at times when I get some new prescription because it's like "oh good, something else to use if I decide to". Can't say much else because it would be unethical on the board.
But Penny, please call me if you need to. Or your doctor, or someone. I really want you to call!! Don't let the thoughts turn into actions.
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