Posted by galkeepinon on July 6, 2003, at 2:31:17
In reply to Re: Frustrated............. » galkeepinon, posted by zenhussy on July 6, 2003, at 2:26:27
zenhussy-wishing you all the comfort I can give you at this moment right now-drink with me-I'm numbin the pain-thats all I can do right now at this moment-I'm reading typing drinking wishing hoping wondering-whats gonna happen to me I dont understand why it has turned out this way why why why why i just dont get it i try i fail i dont want to try i fail i cant win i dont want to try i dont want to win what is winning is it worth it anyway
cheers and peace always
> > Well, it's one of those nights, drinkin some MErlot, hangin out by the comp, thinkin thinkin thinkin-is this all there is to life? watching people, playing with animals, sleeping, taking meds, wondering when I will be happy-I mean really happy. Happy where I don't have to wonder what this life is all about?
> > I see children and want to hug them up and tell them they are innocent-it's adults sometimes who do the best they can but sometimes fail like my dad did. I miss my dad-I don't care how old I am-I miss the man-alcohol and drugs got the best of the man and shame of showing tears took him away from a family who loves him more than we love ourselves. So what do I do? What can a person do? Pray? Hope? Wish upon a star?
> > I don't know. Does anyone know? Again, I don't know
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> Gal,
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> Up far too late and drunk and missing my dead pa. Can't answer any of your questions but can only say I'm reading and saw your post.
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> There is more to life...if I have any insights I'll be sure to pass em on. But for now I'm sauced and teary (screw that I'm flat out sobbing my fricking eyes out!).
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> Insomnia and drunkeness and pain are all a bad mix.
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> Wishing you some sleep and peace. Wanting to go drown in the tub but can't even stand any longer after the booze and the emotional toil that tonight/this morning has had on me.
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> If I could just sleep. Sleep would steal me away from this hell I live in.
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> Sorry to rant but am not focused and can barely focus my eyes on screen.
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> Wishing you more to life and wishing I had more comfort to offer.
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> Sorry so damn maudlin.
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> zenhussy
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