Posted by zenhussy on July 6, 2003, at 2:26:27
In reply to Frustrated............., posted by galkeepinon on July 6, 2003, at 2:11:08
> Well, it's one of those nights, drinkin some MErlot, hangin out by the comp, thinkin thinkin thinkin-is this all there is to life? watching people, playing with animals, sleeping, taking meds, wondering when I will be happy-I mean really happy. Happy where I don't have to wonder what this life is all about?
> I see children and want to hug them up and tell them they are innocent-it's adults sometimes who do the best they can but sometimes fail like my dad did. I miss my dad-I don't care how old I am-I miss the man-alcohol and drugs got the best of the man and shame of showing tears took him away from a family who loves him more than we love ourselves. So what do I do? What can a person do? Pray? Hope? Wish upon a star?
> I don't know. Does anyone know? Again, I don't knowGal,
Up far too late and drunk and missing my dead pa. Can't answer any of your questions but can only say I'm reading and saw your post.
There is more to life...if I have any insights I'll be sure to pass em on. But for now I'm sauced and teary (screw that I'm flat out sobbing my fricking eyes out!).
Insomnia and drunkeness and pain are all a bad mix.
Wishing you some sleep and peace. Wanting to go drown in the tub but can't even stand any longer after the booze and the emotional toil that tonight/this morning has had on me.
If I could just sleep. Sleep would steal me away from this hell I live in.
Sorry to rant but am not focused and can barely focus my eyes on screen.
Wishing you more to life and wishing I had more comfort to offer.
Sorry so damn maudlin.
zenhussy
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