Posted by Emme on June 26, 2003, at 22:07:50
In reply to Forsaken-Gets graphic-Beware, posted by Miller on June 26, 2003, at 14:02:42
> Has anyone every felt so defeated because it seems every person is out to hurt you in some way or another?
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> I feel desperately sad today. It seems I attract people (casual, close, professional, and romantic) that hurt me and hurt me as deeply as they can.Miller, I'm so sorry you feel so sad.
> I am desperately sad. In some ways it feels as if I have made nothing but wrong decisions in my life. I don't think there is any doubt in my mind that there is little I can do to make a contribution to this world. "The road to hell is paved with good intentions" and all of that.
I sure do relate to all of those feelings. You're not alone. But you contributed to my thread above, and took the time in your sadness to try to help me. So you are obviously compassionate. And the world needs as many compassionate people as possible. So I think you make a contribution just by your existence. (You can't argue with logic!)
> I know this sounds gross, but, I swear, I think I was meant to be aborted and somehow it didn't work. My mother had many before and after me. Maybe my fate was somehow screwed up. At least if that was true, I could at least be able to blame a reason for all of this misery.
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> Of course, since there would be no way to prove that, it leaves only me to blame. I think therapy has been way over-rated. I think it is a lot like giving sugar pills to a psychosamatic patient. As long as we think it should help, it does. Lose hope and what happens then?You to blame for your misery? I don't know you well, but it sounds to me like you've worked hard at managing your illness. I do hope you can keep some hope alive. Let's see, how's a hug written online...? (((Miller))) Feel better soon.
Emme
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