Posted by Giget on June 17, 2003, at 7:53:07
Well it looks like almost everyone is going through some sort of distress with relationships lately.... it must be the energy affecting everyone.
Went to see my theripst last night, and tryed to explain stuff, but I had been feeling extremely well lately.
I have been so depressed I guess I told myself I would not be that way anymore, and pushed it aside and forced myself to be happy. I know that I am not truly happy and that I am just teasing myself because hard days are a head. But I am going between extremes.
My past posts were ones of disparity, and not wanting to be here. Now I am uforic. Years ago, I was diagnosed with BP2, but this was later explained to me my another doctor to be wronge. It is just that I get so depressed that I am really low and when I have a good day or am high, I am at about where everyone else is on a regular day.....
Does this sound correct? I know that I am kidding myself, I just hope I am not doing more damage overall. I am just so tired of being so depressed..........
So much is going on in my life, I guess this is self defence... Just shutting down that part of me. Can other people who see me on a regular basis see this facide? I am just so confused.
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