Posted by lostsailor on May 20, 2003, at 19:26:10
In reply to Re: Next therapist please..., posted by kara lynne on May 20, 2003, at 12:23:56
uuuggggg!!!!!!!!!!!!
Appointment was vexing…
I am "glad" to see things are finally "working out" with you two. Yes, I know what you mean, but maybe he has seen the "light" as I think he has quite a good "catch" right now and , perhaps, he too has finally realized that as well. I don't mean to , make you sound like you are a boring piece of fresh-water cod , but. I think you know that..lol
Doc appt. was rather frustrating. "we're" ( I love that we’re trying “upping lexapro and ambian, and next time 'maybe' the xanax, too"--that would be 10 mgs a day...or 80 mg valium, my choice as “I know what works better“…
As I was leaving, he mentioned that "we" could , perhaps, dig into the MAOI's"--I got p'oed-,reminded him that when I mentioned that 5 yrs ago when he told me to look @ the profile of them and he said the side-effects and precautions (e.g., dietary restrictions, weight gain, water retention ect) were not what "he" would like with the advent of all the SSRI's available and the "minimal" side effects that occur with them."
As I was leaving, I asked him, what "we" really means??--as in, “do you try all of this in concert with me" --"doc. do you know what this is like and that if these are in your own words a med of last resort these in this day and age, what if they don't work… To be honest, at least now, though not feeling well, I can still eat without needing to know all of the ingredients, inc beans--I am a vegetarian, so...???" Of course, he coily answered that he does not swallow all of these to see what he feels like as I "stole" his new Prozac mini-basketball--stating that "I might as well leave with something useful." He said "well' explore things further after this change current change. .. Now off the pharmacy, with my, umm, 7 scripts--3 of which are PRN---how does one deal with three meds to be used as needed BUT never to combine all three, just two???-- just to find out that the xanax re-fill order will pass the 30 day re-fill limitations in NYS and that I'll need to go back to the office and get a new one in a few weeks--I get 3 months at a time.
I have had so many second opinions it is sad. My mom is gonna now "call in a favor" to a pdoc who I played little league baseball with her son ---who I have already seen for a second opinion--does this equal a second opinion squared??
I am sure I will get into her before I see him again, but he is literally noted as one of the best in NYS pdoc literature citations, and she was the one that pointed me in the direction to look on medlib, a great database.
I can go out and exercise now at length, my "meditation on the move" as I call it --b/c I need to concentrate on things so much as I am constantly pushing physical limitations, I can't afford to dwell on things while on a 50 mile bike ride at 25 mph and be able to eat, drink, watch traffic and worry all at once. I am fine, though sadly enough at home, but function fine anywhere other than my own city, as I hate the “what‘s been doing“ that I always get from friends--NYC, bean town and Toronto are my favorites due to the fact that people are literally stepping over the homeless and all are somewhat neurotic and pay no notice to me.
I am at wits end almost and he knows that, but at the same time, he readily admits, that we have almost exhausted all med combos and CBT is only of limited use for me as are groups.
I am seriously thinking about joining the Peace Corps, Salvation Army or Red Cross to get to somewhere 'sane" like Afghanistan...Today after researching though, I found that it is really hard to get into the PC, but the others are “promising”
Sorry to babble so on babble...lmao.
Congratulations are given to all that were able to read this post in it's entirety. Anyone, anyone want to adopt a neurotic????
In peace now that I am at home,
~tonyps...of course Aurora's p'oed at the fact that I will not move out of her house and only come to work at "the farm" instead of having to reside here as well.
My goodness, look at all the quotation marks!!!
>>pieces<< I feel like "a china doll just a lil' fractured from the fall"
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