Posted by WorryGirl on April 29, 2003, at 0:55:46
In reply to Re: Am I Dumb, Boring, Invisible, Fake or Weird? All? » WorryGirl, posted by Dinah on April 28, 2003, at 9:57:01
> No need to be embarassed. I know I've wondered the same thing from time to time. I usually choose fake. Or maybe I choose that I and the entire world are fake.
>Why are we all so fake anyway? Is it because not many can handle the brutal truth? I swear I can. Yet I go on smiling and agreeing, even when I'm cringing inside. Still so afraid of disapproval, of mommy and daddy's disapproval, of the kids in 7th grade's disapproval. What a crazy world we live in. It's funny how the brutal truth really does sting, even to the point of occasionally leaving me feeling comatose (sp?). But in the end, after I've beaten myself up at least a dozen times mentally I usually have learned a valuable lesson.
> Then my therapist asks those darn reality check questions. Do you have any objective evidence to think you're fake, weird, etc. Unfortunately I always have to answer yes to the weird. (I think he does too.) But weird isn't so bad. I prefer to think of it as unique.
I have plenty of objective evidence, but I won't go there right now! I get your therapist's point and agree that much of our labels are about how we think others are perceiving us even if it is 100% in our head. I agree, weird is usually good, if it is a harmless weird. If I truly qualify that would be a pretty safe label for me - harmlessly weird or weirdly harmless (lol).
Thanks for your response, Dinah - I always enjoy hearing your point of view.
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