Posted by kara lynne on February 21, 2003, at 20:34:09
In reply to There was a time, posted by likelife on February 21, 2003, at 17:40:46
Hi lifelike, (I like that name)
I understand so much how it feels to be trapped inside yourself. It's a good thing at least that you can talk to your husband about anything, a lot of people don't have that, but I know that doesn't help when you're feeling like you need friends. Sometimes I feel like I'm just too broken to have friends; it takes to much energy to have to make a presentation. Not that I want to be inauthentic, my struggle is exactly to be authentic, but I don't want to go around indiscriminately revealing all my inner conflict. Sometimes I think I've erred on the side of being too honest about that --people don't know how to respond, or think they have to fix you, or somehow use it to be in a superior position. It truly seems like an art to be with people, and I guess you have to guage what to share with whom. But there are places in my life, ways I want to be able to express myself that I can't and it's so painful. My guitar has been sitting in my closet for years and I don't know why, but it's just too hard to get myself to play-- yet I would be so much happier if I did. Yesterday someone told me about a book-- the sequel to "The HIghly Sensitive Person" that sounded like it would be good. I get so frustrated sometimes hearing things like "you're afraid of intimacy". It just seems like such a stock answer, although I guess it's true. That's my own stuff though, I don't mean to put down you therapist. Well I rambled.
poster:kara lynne
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