Posted by daizy on February 12, 2003, at 11:50:29
In reply to ~my past won't leave me be, posted by dreamerz on February 11, 2003, at 20:40:36
> it's killing me..I want the bad stuff erased from my brain...can't stop crying..I look like someone in the mirror why do I deserve crap I move forward I have potential..but I can't break from the ambience of dread it's like a curse..
> I feel like a child in a bad dream .A small thing sets me back I feel like I'm rotting away inside my heart is giving up-literally...I sense my time is short.
> Guess this is a bad day..I need a big change
Today is a bad day for me too. Its one of those miserable blue days, one of those days I'd be so blue I'd go out and end up doing stuff I now want to forget I ever did. I dont understand why I did some of the things I did, stupid things, dangerous things. Now I cant forget them.
I know what you mean about a big change. something exciting to take my mind away from thinking about how depressed i am. has anyone ever got that feeling of excitement back after loosing it? I dont think I ever will.
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