Posted by jay on February 11, 2003, at 21:13:11
In reply to ~my past won't leave me be, posted by dreamerz on February 11, 2003, at 20:40:36
> it's killing me..I want the bad stuff erased from my brain...can't stop crying..I look like someone in the mirror why do I deserve crap I move forward I have potential..but I can't break from the ambience of dread it's like a curse..
> I feel like a child in a bad dream .A small thing sets me back I feel like I'm rotting away inside my heart is giving up-literally...I sense my time is short.
> Guess this is a bad day..I need a big changeIs there anything you can change or do about past events? (i.e. financial problems....job situation..etc?) Or is it maybe more what has happened to you on a social/personal level?
Also, are your *symptoms* being looked after? Are you tending to your anxiety and/or depression? I find both require a *serious* balance, like walking a tightrope. The most *painful* I find is anxiety, and I describe it often as something like a "..dentists drill grinding away at every nerve ending in my body x 1 zillion..". Are your medications working for you in these areas?
You are in the UK, right? It seems like some doctors there have a very conservative mindset when it comes to medication choices. Have you tried a few other doctors? That is your right you know..regardless of what people say about 'doctor shopping'. Heck, most people will drive 10 miles across town to their favourite dry cleaners but accept one doctors oppinion as being gospel. Truth is..often..if you think you are smarter than your doctor...you may be right. Besides very particular interactions, you can guess upon medications just as much as they can. And, you are the one who knows your body best...not they.
This is a *deadly* illness, so please take every (educated) chance, precaution, you can..and please take care of *yourself*.
Best wishes as always....
Jay
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